It very suddenly feels like summer.
Summer has always been my favorite season. I like hot weather and the sun on my face. But for some reason the sudden change in the temperature is making me feel uneasy. I think I am not ready. It was cold when I quit my job (one month ago today) and the feeling of warm air makes me more aware of the passage of time. And then I feel anxiety and guilt because I have not accomplished anything. I mean I have done a lot of chores and tasks and what-nots but I don’t feel like I am any closer to figuring out what comes next and what I am trying to do.
I need to let that go and remember it took me a long time to get to this place and so it is going to take me more than 30 days to figure out where I am going. This is easy for me to say and harder for me to do.
Speaking of 30 days, I told myself I would keep up the “5-day-a-week” post challenge for 30 days. I have not decided yet if that means 30 actual days (today) or 30 posts, which would mean 2 more weeks of weekday posts. Because I am having a hard time writing today’s post it makes me want to conclude I have completed the self imposed challenge. However, I think the fact that I am struggling so much today probably means I need to push myself to do 30 posts before I ratchet back the ramblings to whenever I feel like I want to write/have something to say.
Have a happy weekend. I’ll chat with you on Monday.